"Why does it seem to be more Veteran's publishing their own stories about their experience serving?"
- Warrior Timothy W Sanders
- Sep 28, 2018
- 9 min read
Warrior Tim's Blog Entry 21
We Warriors Will Climb The Mountain Top of Hope on Telling Our Story or Stories For the Sake of Truth Being Told By The Pain & Suffering Being a Warrior Has Caused It Through Going to War: The Story Will Be Told Even If The Pain Is Unbearable or The Reminder Of War Causes More Suffering But The Sacrifice of our Story or Stories Will Not End There But Go On For Generations to Come.
As I am on this journey with my missions & projects of writing the book I am writing about, and the documentary project production; it is as if I am really not alone; even at first I felt as if that was the case because of my straight forward of being very blunt. But, now being several months into the Warrior Tim's Writing Book Project-2018 I am getting this very different outlook, and I am getting the sense that I am not just being heard, I am being encouraged to keep it going, even though at times I feel as if I am getting a lot of people misreading and at times confused by individuals who seem to misunderstand my approach, and of the reasoning behind why I even got into Warrior Tim's Writing Book Project-2018, but regardless the show must go on.
I understand for the success of this writing book project I need to not just look at my story or just focus on my experience, but to get the full affect of a very broad outlook of what is going on with other Warriors and to try and incorporate that with my writing book project, I am going to have to keep on course with doing my research, and to keep looking into the stories of other Warriors who are in the works with their own writing book project or have completed theirs already, because for me to think that I am going to get anything out of just focusing on me, and not look at the other Warriors; that is just narrow minded thinking, and it will isolate from other Warriors experience and not give them an opportunity to share their story as a spotlight covers over them as well, not just me.
I have said from the beginning I do not want to just be about me but to also shine the spot light on my Brothers & Sisters in Arms in my country but also abroad. I want to get the insight of Warriors who were part of their country that while serving their country they were part of the coalition forces that were part of the joint effort of combating terrorism globally, and I know it is a daunting task, just being a few months into this my head at times is spinning, and I am just so overwhelmed, and feel as if I am getting no where until, I get hints and in your face hey look at this Warrior in such a cool and gentle approach from others, but from others it is not so pleasant, but very irritating, and then I get started with a very negative attitude that can easily be taken out of context.
So, here I am several months in the making of managing a website, social media accounts, writing a book, a blog author, an editor of my own Warrior-Veteran-Daily-News, and I am producing; you bet when I wake up in the morning I am asking, "What the heck am I getting myself into?" and what I am being told by God is this, "I am with you and I will not leave you nor forsake you, but you just got to keep trusting me not yourself or others, but to just not allow yourself to be distracted by the world or what may popup in your head or others, because if you do, you are going to get off point, and everything will just unravel from underneath you and I will not be able to stop you because God gave you freewill to listen or not to listen."
Now, you may believe me or not or think what I just is a bunch of crazy, and it isn't so or true, but it is, and everyday for years I have been devoting time with the Lord, and even at times I can say and do stupid things, I know God and I got this going on with His Son 'Jesus Christ' to where I am hearing a lot of different voices in my head then what was going on since I got off my medication the doctors had me on, and these voices and the feelings I am getting is nothing like before.
It is if I am closer to the Lord than ever before, it is as if I am more focused on what I am hearing and seeing, and experiencing than when I was doped on self medicating drugs and prescribed drugs to where I felt I was dead in side, and a zombie, but now almost a year of being pretty much drug free besides smoking cigarettes, and drinking one or two beers a day if that sometimes once a week, and my coffee. Yep, I am seeing things so much different, and I am looking at life so much different, but it doesn't mean I don't have my struggles, and I don't have my moments, oh you bet I do, you bet, I am very much feeling the hurt still trying to overcome with fear, anxiety to the point of keeping me captive. I still see, feel, smell, and experience combat every day, and even more so now since I have been dedicating myself with my time, money, and efforts to reach the goal of finishing the missions & projects: at times I just need to be alone, need to think, need to rest, and need to just write.
So, what inspired me to write Warrior Tim's Blog Entry 21 is because of hearing about a Warrior named James Dietz, who is an Iraqi Combat Veteran who has wrote a book that is poetry I believe, and I heard about him by Germ Kilpsch who I have became friends through Facebook, and when I seen the post about James Dietz book, "Still Seeing A Dead Soldier", I really stopped and thought, yes this is good, yes, this is inspiring, and then others shared more about this book, and today I had a chance from a day ago posting James info of his book on my social media accounts, yep you betcha, James Dietz reached out to me, and man I was electrified, and emotional, and in the zone, and really enjoyed reading his messages to me that were back and forth and back and forth, and when became friends through Facebook after I accepted his request to be friends. Now I am waiting for his response to my thoughts and statements, but we are in a different time-zone internationally, so he is probably resting or about to get ready for the morning, but regardless, this is so cool.
What is so cool about this whole situation in my own perspective and outlook, it is that I felt this was a God thing, because from me being on the defense of how I have been really rudely attacked by some of the people on Facebook, and I know I am to blame to a certain extent, I am now getting messages that is taking me back on point with my missions & projects and getting others involved from what I have been trying to get going for a long while. It could be that one of my post I posted was a very passionate and real to the core truth about my feelings, and of my raw and pure emotions that night of writing a very long poem about Invisible Wounds could of prompted this whole chain of events, because that night I was not even thinking about writing a poem, it just happened, it just randomly came about, and no I had no idea about this Warrior: James Dietz, because if I recall correctly after I posted my poem, and a day or two later is when I heard about Warrior James Dietz.
So, call me crazy or call me whatever, man I am juiced again, and I am feeling it more and more about keeping what I got going to take it as far as it can go or as far God will allow me to do so. I just pray I don't really mess up with pissing people off who are willing to help like Warrior James, and others who have reached out to me like: Terry Gillete. Because I know I can be a handful at times, especially if provoked or agitated by stupid and annoying situations, and that just proves I do have issues that are not completely resolved from my experience in the military, and especially serving abroad in combat.
I am loving it...I just need to keep pressing on and keep fighting the good fight...and to just not give up, and to listen to not just God but to listen to other Warrior's feedback, and keep God completely involved with what I am doing with the missions & projects, but to also look at the other aspects of how much more not just my missions and projects but other Warrior's en-devours can be profoundly affected by coming together and being a force to be reckon with of our bond of being brothers and sisters in arms of bring the truth to the forefront of what many don't still get in the civilian world or of the U.S. Government not wanting us to band together, because it would bring truth to the reality that not enough is being done with taking care of our Veterans, but regardless I think what has taken place in the last 48 to 72 hours has gotten me thinking, and has given me hope, and has also showed me to pipe it down a bit with the rhetoric of my beliefs of my political views, and more on why am I really doing the mission s and projects in the first place?
Is it to run for Congress or President or is it to tell a story or two and to help advocate, and to help promote a unity of banding together with other warriors across the globe to encourage them to tell their stories, and to put the spotlight on them for a change not of those who are not making a change or a good change for the Warriors across the globe who served, fought, and sacrificed for what? I believe to tell our stories, to get everyone who is willing to band together and unite as a strong force of Warriors reaching-out and touching the core of the souls of many by thought provoking stories that are poems, short stories, long stories, music poems, music in general, theater or biographies or autobiographies, or a documentary; whatever it takes, whatever God wills or we as individuals or as a group will to do with the support of others or not; this movement of Warriors telling their stories is just the beginning, and just wait, they may even write a book about it or make a movie about; who knows!
Warriors! Will you join us on this journey of telling our stories of sharing our experience so it can be heard for therapeutic reasoning's or for educational reasoning's or to just tell a story?
I encourage whoever is thinking about getting involved with not what I am doing, but with what James Dietz or what Terry Gillete is doing, whatever just muster the courage, and get motivated and put thought to action by making your thought into a reality of words that will printed or heard throughout the world for anyone willing to experience the wonderful and historical movement of Warrior's telling their story whether it be about War or about anything that impacted their lives and will in return be an asset to society that will give hope to others or it will just move you to the point to get more involved of helping the Veteran Community or to help advocate or help lobby for the Veteran Community, but regardless; trying to silence the Warrior will only bring tragedy to an already tragic residual affects of War that a Warrior pays dearly with the the blunt force of it almost for many Warriors a daily reminder how War can not just change but create a world in your mind, in your soul, and in your heart that will scar you invisibly or physically that can never be removed from your life for many because of how it has altered our whole outlook on life and how life can just changes so drastically for many Warriors during service and out of service.
But keep in mind war doesn't just affect the Warrior it affects everyone from the Warrior's family, friends, work, school, and society overall that will for generations be a ripple affect of unknown consequences until it is exposed by those who researched and studied the impact of war and the warriors that served, fought, and sacrificed.
Just like that War is now a permanent reminder of how mankind can just so easily ruin the lives of many by one action of going to war; for what?
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Author: Warrior Timothy W. Sanders
Note: If you enjoyed reading this Warrior Blog Entry 21, please checkout the other blog entries as well!
Thank you for taking the time of reading this Warrior Tim's Blog Entry 21, if there are any questions or concerns, please feel free to contact me via email!: contactus@warriortimothywsanders.info
Lastly, I am about to purchase his book online right now after I finish this blog entry, so if you haven't done so, go click on the link below, and get yourself a copy of his latest book, "Still Seeing a Dead Soldier", on Amazon.com!
Links to checkout:
https://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_noss?url=search-alias%3Ddigital-text&field-keywords=still+seeing+dead+soldier
https://www.pinterest.ph/vladimirarts/james-dietz-art/
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